Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Poverty as Richness

"God cannot fill what is full. He can only fill emptiness, deep poverty, and your "Yes" is the beginning of being or becoming empty. It is not how much we really "have" to give, but how empty we are, so that we can receive fully in our life and let Him live his life in us." — Blessed Teresa of Calcutta

Sin makes me feel full. Whether by Gluttony or by selfish impure sins of lust. I need to be empty for God to fill me. I need to have a spare bedroom in my heart and soul to allow Christ to dwell there. I need to go to confession to save Christ from drowning in that formerly empty room which I have now filled with my sin.

I received the Eucharist 3 times in 48 hours, and I had never felt so strong against sin. But of course, I eventually failed. I think I am just going to take the plunge and go with the Latin massers / Traditionalists, as they're the only one's offering daily confession and mass. I'm also reading Meister Eckhart O.P, such a great preacher.

I need to feel empty again so that God can fill me. I think I am just beginning to understand in some tiny way, the implications of the vow of poverty.


  1. It seems to me that Almighty God is showering you with signal graces, Andrew. What a great blessing it is that you are cooperating with Him to fill yourself with His goodness! The Latin Mass is a great source of grace--I have been a Latin Mass goer myself for nearly fifteen years, and I cannot begin to put into words how it has changed my life for the better. I will continue to pray for you, Andrew, and I ask you for your prayers for my son K. who has battled for some time with the demons who would carry him down with themselves. Thank you very much. May God bless you and Our Lady protect you.

  2. I will do so, thank you for your kind words and blessings.